As I sit here I wonder. I wonder if I am going to end up disappointing every one I care about. I wonder if I am going to disappoint myself. I wonder if I am the only one who feels how I do. I wonder if life is going to pass me by. I am also very grateful for every positive thing that I do have. I love the fact I have a cousin that no matter how much of a bitch I am being will put up with me.I love the fact that I know what its like to love someone with all my heart. Even though I no longer have that person I am appreciative of what I used to have. I think that some people never know that feeling. I love the fact I have friends who are going to be brutally honest with em even if they know it’ll hurt a bit. I also love that I have friends who can’t get mad at me even when I’m a total ass to them. Most of all I love that I care so much. Even though sometime I care too much and get down on my self. I love that I have not become numb. “We love life, not because we are used to living but because we are used to loving.”- Friedrich Nietzsche