I am slightly askew to how I am feeling. I just found out that the person on this planet I hold to the highest regard became available. She is a symbol of perfection in my eyes. But I don’t quite know how to feel. I am not happy with the fact she broke up with someone who seemed to make her extremely happy. I am happy for a selfish reason that there may be a possibility that me and her can be together once again. But I don’t know if that would really make me happy. You know how you felt in your childhood when Santa wasn’t real. That’s how I am afraid this will end up. What if she doesn’t want me. Or she isn’t as good as i remembered. I don’t know what to do. There are three possibilities. The first would be that I get rejected instantly in which my life will remain stagnant. The second is that she could disappoint me and that it give me the motivation that i have been looking for, for almost three years to get over her. Or lastly, the biggest long shot of the three is that we could work out and things could be how they were before or even better. I don’t know what to do or how I should feel but I am currently leaning towards joy. In the words of George Washington, “Fuck yea, Bitch!!!” Or something like that.